I’m a firm believer that we are all given individual gifts and it is up to us to find out what they are and then to use them to serve God and others. I also believe that “to whom much is given, much will be required.” So now that I believe my individual gift is to write Christian fiction to spread God’s Word, why didn’t I stay home last night and market my book some more? Instead I went to a meeting at my church – we were invited to come give our input to help direct the Diocese in the next five years. I thought beforehand am I spreading myself too thin? Or wouldn’t it just be easier to sit home and do nothing (although I always have a hard time with that!) Or at least do stuff I’d rather be doing – read, take a walk, watch TV, etc. Not to mention my husband was speaking at another service meeting and I would have liked to hear him. But I felt something stir inside to go. And then during the meeting I found myself raising my hand to volunteer to go to the next meeting! (what is wrong with me, I thought!) But as I drove home I felt this inexplicable joy fill me – and I thought, it will all be good – and my husband (bless his heart) – although he sometimes has to suffer from my writing and “service” (messy house, less time together) says “if you’re at church it can’t be a bad thing.” Life is full of tough choices every day. I guess we can only follow our hearts and keep praying to do God’s Will – and leave the outcome to Him.
